Worry and Control

I have been known to live by a to-do list. Some people would say I am over the top with my to-do list. For instance, there have been times I have done something not on my to-do list- then written it on my to-do list- just so I could check it off. Ahhh checking things off....... finishing....... tying up all the loose ends........... finding that final sense of closure.........

It is such a sweet feeling- to know something is settled.

No more need to worry over it.

Unfortunately, most of life is not this way- and therein lies the source of so much of my angst. It seems I always have multiple projects in progress- or I am in the turmoil of a job search - or I have some issue that is unsettled with someone I care about. It's all so stressful- worrisome- even Godless. Why do I have such a hard time taking hold of God's promises? Seek first the Kingdom of God and all the rest will be taken care of. All things work together for good to them that Love God. He is a Rewarder of them that diligently seek Him. He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion. Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. In all ways acknowlege Him and He will make your paths straight. Pray and the Peace of God will gaurd your heart. I want what I want- and I want it now- done- settled- in a neat little package with a ribbon on top- And I will resort to whatever means are necessary that do not offend my conscience too much or get me in trouble to have what I want. I will plan- I will use my cleverness- I will use my influence- I will use my authority- I will............ It is such a Godless, arrogant, stressful, miserable way to live. It is like saying to God- Thy will be done (as long as your will aligns with Mine). It is a way of living fueled by lies........ Fueled by an enemy who is the father of lies- whose native tongue is a language of lies...........Fueled by corrupted desires............Fueled by a world gone mad...........Fueled by a mistrust of God- just like in the Garden where the serpent began it all with his great lie- God is holding out on you- Eat from this tree then you can be like Him. Away with the lies- Hold fast to Truth God is Good- God Loves me! He has Life for me beyond what I can even imagine. No eye has seen, No ear has heard and No mind has imagined what God has in store for those who Love Him. Hold fast to the Truth right in the middle of the turmoil. Seek Him-Delight in Him. Father in Heaven, Lord Jesus, Friend Jesus, Holy Spirit, move in me powerfully today to always remember what is true- to cling to what is true. Come against the enemy of my heart with Love and Truth. Forgive me where I waver- where I worry- where I doubt You. Send me people spur me on to Love and Truth. Amen