Prayer, Life and Revelation

Have you ever wanted something- Pursued something with all your energy- Prayed for that thing- Hoping- Just hoping God would come through? Between Thanksgiving and New Years I spent no less than 30 hours sitting on a deer stand. I spent an additional 15 to 20 hours in preparation for or traveling back and forth to the woods. Now as much as I love the woods- The risng sun in the morning- The scene around me coming to life in ways no other man will behold that particular day- I have to admit that not seeing even a single deer was a bit discouraging. I went hunting primarily to kill a deer- At least to see deer- It is why I was there. It is what got me up at 5:00 am each morning- To brave the cold and sometimes rain. My greatest desire was to hunt down, outwit and kill a deer- The bigger the deer the better- Oh I pretended to myself that it was enough to be in God's wonderful creation- But in the end my disappointment revealed my true desires.

I could not truely be satisfied-

With anything other than what I wanted.

My prayers for the last few weeks-Maybe months-

Have included a request that God give me a greater desire-

A greater Love for Him-

A Love for Him that is greater than my Love for anything else on the earth- Or Beyond. I wonder sometimes if in answering that prayer- God must reveal those places in me where His rivals live-

There can be no confession or repentance-

Without there first being conviction.

God answers prayer for sure-

But what about when the prayers are at odds with each other?

Lord give me a Greater desire for You than anything else in this world-

Or Beyond.

Lord send me a deer this morning.

Maybe the denying of the lesser-

Contributes to the fruition of the Greater.

Psalm 37:4-5 Delight yourself in the Lord-

And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord-

Trust in Him and He will do this.

Father in Heaven-

Thank You for answering the greater prayers.

Move in me to trust You and give me a desire for You-

A Desire that is truely greater than any other desire I have for anything else on this earth or beyond.

Amen